A call back home

Early Saturday morning, when "early" was being mentioned, it is really early. Probably the night before I slept quite early. 1030 pm, for me I still feel was a pretty early timing for me to go to bed but after adopting to the Aussie lifestyle, I always feel tired and slept around this time. Probably is a good and healthy habit to be continue.

So, in due of this, I woke up at 0445 on the Saturday morning. Initial plan was to go back to bed and sleep. But after lying back to the bed, no matter how , I just feel awake. Look at my clock, it is just 0500. In this early morning, I decided to make a call back to my parents. I felt a little guilty of not calling back for some days. With no surprise, my mum picked up the phone. The below was a little conversation between us.

"Ei... Gal.... why you called back in such time? Anything happen to you...."

"No lah... I knew that you and papa woke up to prepare for the stall opening... That's why make a call to you lo....."

My mum knew that I have moved to stay with Jenny and Chin. The next thing she said was about the reason why I moved out in a sudden.

"I told you long ago not to have too much hope with your Uncle. He was my brother and I knew his character well enough. I got my only daughter in Perth to let him take care a while and yet he didnt even notifying me before he let you move out. He had been calling me for many times but I missed the call. Not sure why he called me."

"Probably you just gave him a call back and see what he wanted to tell you."

"Is ok.... I can guess what he wanna said. But Gal, you need to be strong. If you really have any problem, just tell auntie, Auntie is a lot nicer to talk with and she is more understandable."

After my mum said about the uncle part, immediately my tears is rolling in my eye.

"Be strong, everything will be fine and you learn from the experience. You can know a person with little action. I still dont understand why he wanted to let you move out so eagerly."

Ya, me myself also not sure why. Although he tell me he wanna do his tax return things but this excuse was for me and even I told my mum she just thing was not good enough. But we dont want to predict too much with it. I just tell her that, when he wanted to help me move, I decided to move on the day. Although was a early morning and I didnt even pack my things yet, I also packed it up very fast and moved.

Jenny did ask why I move in a sudden. Though will be on the ANZ day, with this , I always have no true answer with it. But deep in my heart I just feel that probably he felt I'm a burden so faster send me off to me independent.

After a short conversation with my mum, my mum passed the phone to my dad. My mum saying my dad missed me dearly. He didnt said much but he said something straight to the point.

"If you feel too difficult to you, if you still cant get a job there, dont worry you just come back to home(Malaysia) will do. There is no big deal at all. "

"Is ok for now... at least a got casual job now... Should be working quite fine now... "

My parents are a bit worry with my situation of not having job. But I still think that I will be fine. Since I have at least 1 casual job being secured, I probably will plan to stay in Perth for 1.5 years at least to finish my CPA Australia exam. Probably a change in environment will let me pass the remaining paper successfully.

The full conversation just take about 12 minutes but it makes my me think of many things. My plans of coming over, going back, continuing finding job , social skill etc. A lot of things suddenly up to my mind. So, in the end, I lie of the bed and started my meditation and chating to calm my mind down. Slowly I fall asleep back.