This was a usual BBQ gathering at Alvin's place. We have quite some time didnt have this session. Probably after Jen and Chin and I moved to stay together.
The usual BBQ session, the usual greating, the usual me that I feel a little uneasy to join the conversation. Is it the topic? Or is it me the problem myself? I dont know. They are all nice people but I do have a feeling that my thoughs are always flying away.
The unsual quiet me. Some time I just do feel sorry but just find that a little difficult to join the topic. Even simply bullshit I also find it difficult. I wonder what is the main problem. Is it being the only Malaysian that surrounded with Singaporean? That is the reason that me and them have a slightly different mindset? I'm not too sure with it. People always thinks that Malaysian and Singaporean are more or less similar but I do feel quite different. I think is the comfort zone that Malaysian and Singaporean standing is different.
Sometime I dont want to make myself too isolated. Sigh, I think be myself is the best way of it. Trying too hard to suit people is also a difficult task.
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